come.

After reading a devotional the other day, I reflected back on my life and came to the sad realization of how I am always asking, asking and asking God for His intervention in my life and actually not coming back to simply express gratitude when He (always) redeems the situation. I found myself literally on my hands and knees pleading to release me of what He was allowing in my life at that time. The quote I read from She Reads Truth made me step back to consider how I actually respond to God, my Father, when He indeed lifts those burdens from that season in my life. When you are in the midst of “fighting” a battle in whatever season it may be, as humans we tend to not look for the light at the end of the tunnel.

Over the past couple months the Lord has allowed me to undergo specific circumstances that would strengthen my faith and dependence on Him, increase my confidence in who He has created me to be, and exercise my voice on behalf of others. I have never felt stretched so thin in my life! It was truly one of the most trying seasons of my life. But God… God in all His goodness and greatness heard my plea. Day after day of fighting for what is right for the sake of another and my voice not being taken nor even considered was a humbling reality of Who really IS in control. Trusting in the sovereignty of God does not seem so simple when you go through a trial or situation that requires patience and endurance. 1 John 2:28 says, “And now, little children, abide in him, so that when he appears we may have confidence and not shrink from him in shame at his coming.”

“Abide, Janelle. Abide in Me. Come.”, He told me.

Those sweet words were spoken softly to me as I surrendered it to Him. I told Him I couldn’t do it anymore (I actually yelled). I was frustrated. My voice was not being heard. I was fighting…so…hard. After my frustration and yelling passed, He continued to bring His words to remembrance from Psalm 40:2 which says, “He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure.”

“Janelle, I am drawing you up. You’re secure. You’ve been faithful. Come.”, He said again. 

He did in fact release me of that burden. He heard my cries and answered my prayers. My voice was heard BY HIM. He hears and knows what is best in all situations. He fights on our behalf when our words do not even suffice.

“Jesus, thank you. Thank you. You have lifted me up. Thank you.”

We are constantly in a battle that is called the process of life. The process that He is making us look more like Himself. Take the time to go back and praise and thank your Father for all He does in our lives. He always provides strength to get through the day, and His mercies are new every morning. Renew your body, soul and spirit in the Father today as we rejoice in our current sufferings. He WILL draw us up. He will plant our feet on solid ground. He will fight for us. Let His will be done.

Exodus 14:14 – “The LORD will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.”

Still.
Be Still.

broken down.

“And on the seventh day God finished his work that he had done, and he rested on the seventh day from all is work that he had done.” –Genesis 2:2

 If you are like me in any way, I like to see the beginning, the middle, and the end of what I am doing. Along with that, I also do not like the wait time –I just like to get it done and over with. But the beauty of everything we go through is the process. Life as we know it has many twists and turns, valleys and mountains. We all wish there was that ONE straight road that could lead us to the end faster, but that is not what God intends for any of his children. He has beauty for us to see along the way, and we are able to look in our rearview mirror and see His faithfulness. Creation was a process that took time, and God has not stopped creating as time passes.

Being completely transparent, I have not been taking the time to enjoy the “ride” lately. Because of that, I have grown discontent and frustrated with my current situation that led me to unconsciously begin the process of changing my life completely, in a positive way of course. However, making a massive, drastic change is not always the answer to our current situations. This morning I was sweetly reminded that something I could do is make multiple little changes in my life in order to respond differently to what is taking place in my life.

God has given me the free will to make choices. Those choices reflect what my heart’s desires are. With considering a massive life change decision, the Lord revealed to me that it was such a selfish “wanting out” situation, when in all reality God has me where I am FOR HIM and FOR A REASON. I know that sounds cliché but it is absolutely true. However, with those choices, it is not a matter of making the right or wrong decision for my life, but rather, “How can I serve my Creator more effectively” kind of decision. Maybe breaking it down to smaller changes will make for a more effective change ultimately. Gosh…That is actually relieving and turns my mountains into hills. This could be as simple as making wise financial decisions, running on a different path than you normally do, reaching out to different relationships every week, moving out of your apartment or out of state, etc. That way results seem more obtainable and in essence easier to accomplish. Also, in the meantime we can do our best to handle things like Chandler from Friends

No but seriously,  let’s purpose to break down every area of our lives and invite God to invade each place so our hearts desires and decisions give Him glory and lead us into experiencing His heart more…Do it with me?

hills.

I forget how much I really enjoy running until I walk out my front door. This morning, I decided that I would start my day with a little cardio. It was entirely delightful. The leaves crackled with each step I took and the crisp breeze carried the autumn aroma that everybody wishes could last for all four seasons. Today on my run, I encountered many hills of all sizes and lengths. Excitement, (yes, excitement) came over me when I approached the inclines. Let me explain. I can run for a while, no big deal. However, it is much more difficult running at an incline. Why was I excited? Because I KNEW it was going to push me and reveal to me how out of shape I actually am (no, but seriously) and what I need to work on.

It is the same in our spiritual race that God has called His children to run. Trials, or hills, in our lives are mirrors that God puts up to reveal to us what does not look like Him and to push us to press on through the One who gives us strength. God has a different calling for each one of us. Whether it be single, married, a certain job, etc., God has called YOU to be fruitful and to be a facilitator of His love and grace where you are.

Being completely transparent, this is an area of struggle for me. How I view my hills on my run looks differently than how I view my “life” hills. I ask desperately moment after moment, day after day, if God would release me from the trials and move me into the next season of life, whatever that looks like. God has created all of us with emotions. It is completely alright to vent, shed tears, grit, and in some cases, be depressed. However, there comes a time where we have to get back up. Whether that be taking a break from “life” and going on a run, leaving town, changing up the pace a bit, simply enjoying and resting in the arms of your Creator. Your life is designed by God and will look differently than lives all around you. I love how Beth Moore says it,

“No one else can fulfill your calling. Other people can do what you’ve been called to do but, child of God, they cannot be YOU doing it. That’s what makes your footprint here unique. What you have been called by God to do is beyond your natural abilities, skills, and talents.”

That hits it right on the head. WE ARE CALLED. We WILL encounter hills while we are fulfilling our calling. It is a guarantee. It is all about changing our thinking when we are faced with hills. Changing our thoughts to that of excitement rather than negativity and frustration. The glass is half full and I like hills.

“I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out to Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward –to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back.

(Phil. 3:12-14 The Message)

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View from Table Rock Trail

Resources:
Children of the Day-Beth Moore